As the wife of a military man for almost ten years now, we have been through our fair share of long courses, operational detachments, last minute stints for my husband away from us, long working hours, postings, last minute changes of plans etc. During this time I'm not ashamed to admit that I've found it hard and extremely testing both physically (as effectively a single parent) and mentally (as someone who has to become the emotional support to my children as well as their constant because their father can't be). All whilst worrying sick that my husband is safe and well wherever he has been sent.
Something I realised just after we were married was just how mentally difficult being the partner of a military person can be; I experienced feelings I never thought I would and with this came thoughts of "why am I feeling like this when other wives seem to be coping fine", "why can't I cope on my own", "I don't want to tell my husband how I feel, he has enough to deal with" and so on.
Over time I realised that surely I wasn't alone in my feelings. I also realised that I needed to try to turn a negative experience (my husband being on detachment), into as positive an experience as I could possibly make it. That's when I decided to start my YouTube channel.
My aim was (and still is) to show the reality of the military lifestyle and its effects on myself and my family, I wanted it to be as honest as possible and to show exactly what we are feeling. I wanted others to watch it and feel they could relate to me, know they aren't alone in their feelings and say "yes, I've felt like you, I know how that feels, thank goodness I'm not the only person feeling that way!" I started my vlog to try to help others who are in my or a similar situation. My videos are made with the thought in mind that they are what I would have liked to have seen in the past. My YouTube channel is also my way of saying you are not alone, let's stick together, support each other and get through these tough times.